the night before my dream involved me being followed by a racoon. he was adorable and seemed domestic, yet i felt as if there was an evil behind the cute face. yet as i tried to get away it would only follow me to cuddle up to my legs like a cat. i kept trying to have it not touch me (possibly because I like cleanliness), and i felt it might have rabies or something but i just feared it… sort of strange. it was a slow motion dream, and all i heard was my heartbeat and the slight throbbing headache pains. 

downloaded and listened to a ton of music <3 oh the love, brings me joy

ok well i was in a classroom sitting next to my one guy friend and he likes to write poetry and i look over and notice he’s writing a poem at the moment and i take a piece of paper and rewrite everything he was writing blankly like a zombie without having him notice . after i finished i read it over and realized it had to be about me, i killed me on the inside because well I’m a girl and I’m weak with lovey romantic shizz. but then i drives me crazy knowing i have a sort of boyfriend (we’re separated currently due to my insanely long grounding) but then mercedes comes along and i show her she agrees its really sweet but then me and her are outside and she’s chasing me around in the rain telling me I’m crazy and that I’m falling for the guy when i already have a guy, and in the window from the building i see two of my exs looking out at us and from the corner of the window is the guy who wrote the poem watching us . then i wake up, but then again I’m currently sick, missing my guy, and going crazy due to my mother and need love I’m lonely (n)

well i sorta compared it to temple run after i woke up xD it was like me, my mom, and step dad all on bikes and we have to hurry or else(i forgot what the or else was), and well we got to a part that has huge cracks and holes in the ground and there water coming out of them and covering the ground, i end up falling into one, into the darkness, and one parent said leave her you cant like help her, but the other one came over near me but it was too late and i was dissapearing.... 

My new boyfriend is well…. THE GREATEST. never had one even close to similar to him :3 we talk everyday and Skype everyday. all day everyday. we talk and talk, make fun of one another then become loving and back to mean then loving… its a cycle of love and sarcasm haha <3

bye bye razors. bye bye thinspo. new years resolution here i come ! i can do this. i can be happy :) i have a realllllyyyy <3 really sweet guy in my life. he’s so funny and makes my heart beat in a sweet rhythm <3 haha omg <3 tons of love. plus today was a great day even though i currently have alooot of work to do ! I’m on good terms with everyone i care about <3 i love seeing them all happy (: